tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13860237.post3680119523294312406..comments2010-02-21T22:16:29.288-07:00Arthur Josephhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09480776782825839303noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-13860237.post-57667480884137709502010-02-21T22:16:29.288-07:002010-02-21T22:16:29.288-07:00Father, many years ago I nearly took my own life. I can&#39;t explain why I didn&#39;t, only that God intervened. I was going to do it, had a plan, and made sure no one knew about it. <br /><br />http://adorotedevote.blogspot.com/2006/10/suicide-mercy-and-redemption.html<br /><br /><br />It&#39;s an old post, one that needs editing for grammar and readability, but...I still ponder the experience. <br /><br />I truly did think that no one cared, and more importantly...that GOD didn&#39;t care, that HE wasn&#39;t there, that HE didn&#39;t exist. From the very beginning, I looked to Him, and in my suffering, if I couldn&#39;t see that He was presnt, then I thought that He wasn&#39;t at all. <br /><br />Over the years since I&#39;ve come to recognize where God was present in my life. There was a biggie, actually: I somehow got the idea to pick up the Bible and read the Psalms. No one told me this, but I read them, I paged through and looked for what I was experiencing or what I wanted to have happen. I found my humanity in the Psalms. <br /><br />In looking back, I see that now as God drawing me to Himself, through His own suffering, for...well, how often did I read Psalm 22 in those years? How often did I read Psalm 57? <br /><br />When I became a cop, years later, I read Psalm 91 every day before work. <br /><br />And now I regularly pray the Liturgy of the Hours which is, what....the PSALMS!<br /><br />God is soo good, He is so present, he never gives up, even when we want to. <br /><br />Even when we can&#39;t see any other way out....that&#39;s where Jesus waits to embrace us.Adorohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02853244433854822731noreply@blogger.com